{"id":944,"date":"2021-02-05T10:10:29","date_gmt":"2021-02-05T15:10:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lienhandicap.mobi\/?p=944"},"modified":"2021-02-05T10:10:29","modified_gmt":"2021-02-05T15:10:29","slug":"un-intrus-qui-glace-tout-un-merci-bien-senti-et-des-voeux-intemporels-partie-1-lintrus","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lepetitparc.ca\/melissa\/2021\/02\/05\/un-intrus-qui-glace-tout-un-merci-bien-senti-et-des-voeux-intemporels-partie-1-lintrus\/","title":{"rendered":"Un INTRUS qui glace tout, un MERCI bien senti, et des V\u0152UX intemporels: Partie 1 – l\u2019intrus"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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\u201cIl faut encore porter en soi un chaos, pour pouvoir mettre au monde une \u00e9toile dansante<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u201d<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

\u2014Nietzsche <\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

***<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

31 d<\/span><\/span>\u00e9cembre: c<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019<\/span><\/span>est les \u00e9motions <\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00e0 <\/span><\/span>fleur de peau que j<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019ai v<\/span><\/span>\u00e9cu le passage vers la nouvelle ann\u00e9<\/span><\/span><\/span>e.<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Il y avait tous ces plans, toutes ces cartes, tous ces mots et ces v\u0153ux que j<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019<\/span><\/span>aurais tant aim\u00e9 \u00e9crire; dont celui-ci que j<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019esp<\/span><\/span>\u00e9rais pouvoir partager le 31 d\u00e9cembre..ou le 1er janvier… Mais j\u2019\u00e9tais tellement crev\u00e9e !
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>Il y avait aussi mes amis que je n<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019<\/span><\/span>ai pu joindre par t\u00e9<\/span><\/span><\/span>l<\/span><\/span>\u00e9phone pour le passage vers la nouvelle ann\u00e9<\/span><\/span><\/span>e…
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>Ah, et il y avait aussi tous ces trucs..<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Mais j<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019<\/span><\/span>oubliais F, cet intrus qui ne me laisse plus, et fait que de plus en plus, j<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019ai l\u2019<\/span><\/span>impression de n\u2019\u00eatre plus que l<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019<\/span><\/span>ombre de moi-m<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00ea<\/span><\/span>me.. Cette charmante dame de compagnie maintes fois pr\u00e9<\/span><\/span><\/span>sent<\/span><\/span>\u00e9e dans mes textes, (pour un portrait bien coquet, par ici:<\/span><\/span><\/span> https:\/\/lienhandicap.mobi\/category\/fatigue\/) vient sucer tout mon jus, encore chambouler mes plans…Et d<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019<\/span><\/span>un coup de vent, faire magistralement basculer le moral <\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Si je me prends <\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00e0 <\/span><\/span>son jeu, je m<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019<\/span><\/span>embourbe dans un tourbillon sans fin,
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>o<\/span><\/span>\u00f9 <\/span><\/span><\/span>je suis victime d<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019<\/span><\/span>un malheureux destin,
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>o<\/span><\/span>\u00f9 <\/span><\/span><\/span>un diagnostic de SP est venu foutre ma vie en l<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019<\/span><\/span>air, et pas juste un brin.
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>Alors souvent, je me rabats sur ma tablette pour que se taise ce disque bris\u00e9, qui me fait entendre encore et encore la m<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00ea<\/span><\/span>me chanson.
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>C\u2019<\/span><\/span>est parfois suffisant pour calmer la temp<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00ea<\/span><\/span>te et retrouver mes esprits. Mais il arrive aussi que ces <\/span><\/span><\/span>fuites ou <\/span><\/span><\/span>diversions <\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>viennent alimenter des pens\u00e9es de tout ce que j<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019<\/span><\/span>ai manqu\u00e9<\/span><\/span><\/span>…<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Et je d<\/span><\/span>\u00e9couvre l<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00e0<\/span><\/span>, maintenant que si, simplement, j<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019<\/span><\/span>abandonne mes attentes, mes r\u00e9flexes de fille full performante, multipliant projets, r<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00ea<\/span><\/span>ves et objectifs…pour humblement reconna<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00ee<\/span><\/span>tre que mon corps suit plus,
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>et que franchement, c<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019<\/span><\/span>est peut-<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00ea<\/span><\/span>tre l<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00e0 <\/span><\/span>ma planche de salut:
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>L\u2019<\/span><\/span>occasion parfaite pour apprendre
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>Apprendre <\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00e0 <\/span><\/span>attendre
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>Attendre
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>D<\/span><\/span>\u00e9couvrir la douceur tendre
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>Suspendre mes impatiences,
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>Oser me laisser surprendre
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>Me laisser prendre et bercer par la vie…<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Juste de m<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00eame,
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>attendre platement
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>attendre encore, confiante que quelque chose est <\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00e0 l<\/span><\/span>\u2019\u0153uvre en moi ou autour, sans que j<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019<\/span><\/span>aie besoin de tout orchestrer
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>Oui, des fois exasp\u00e9<\/span><\/span><\/span>r<\/span><\/span>\u00e9<\/span><\/span><\/span>e.
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>Respirer.
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>M\u00ea<\/span><\/span>me quand je me peux plus.
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>Quand j<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u2019<\/span><\/span>en peux plus de ce rythme terriblement lent…;
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>Puis, lentement, je deviens moins tendue…
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>Et…wow, je vois poindre le possible…l<\/span><\/span><\/span>\u00e0 o<\/span><\/span>\u00f9 <\/span><\/span><\/span>tout semblait perdu…
<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span>l\u00e0 o<\/span><\/span>\u00f9 <\/span><\/span><\/span>j\u2019<\/span><\/span>aurais jamais cru !<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p>\n\n\n

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\u201cIl faut encore porter en soi un chaos, pour pouvoir mettre au monde une \u00e9toile dansante\u201d \u2014Nietzsche *** 31 d\u00e9cembre: c\u2019est les \u00e9motions \u00e0 fleur de peau que j\u2019ai v\u00e9cu le passage vers la nouvelle ann\u00e9e. Il y avait tous ces plans, toutes ces cartes, tous ces mots et ces v\u0153ux que j\u2019aurais tant aim\u00e9 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":30,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"_crdt_document":"","disable_featured_image":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[18,1],"tags":[145,207,217],"taxon-du-petit-parc":[],"class_list":["post-944","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-fatigue","category-non-classe","tag-handicap","tag-resilience","tag-sclerose-en-plaques","post-preview"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lepetitparc.ca\/melissa\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/944","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lepetitparc.ca\/melissa\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lepetitparc.ca\/melissa\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lepetitparc.ca\/melissa\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/30"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lepetitparc.ca\/melissa\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=944"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/lepetitparc.ca\/melissa\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/944\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lepetitparc.ca\/melissa\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=944"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lepetitparc.ca\/melissa\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=944"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lepetitparc.ca\/melissa\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=944"},{"taxonomy":"taxon-du-petit-parc","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lepetitparc.ca\/melissa\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/taxon-du-petit-parc?post=944"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}